Dream you’re mine

The journey from miscarriage to whatever comes next

Mixed messages–12 dpo December 4, 2008

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Ok, technically I got a super faint positive this morning.  There is a second line, but it is only viewable by the highly trained eye of an obsessive POAS-er, who has peed on what seems like thousands of sticks!  : )

But yesterday I had some spotting and my temp has gone down for the third day in a row.  Symptoms have really subsided.  It just doesn’t seem like it is a viable pregnancy.  I know it is still early and lots of women spot, but I’m just not feeling confident….

Here’s the chart.  The first one is a comparison of all my pregnancy cycles.  Sep ’07 and Mar ’08 were the chemical pregnancy/blighted ovum cycles.  I lost one at 15 dpo and one at 18 dpo, so I guess we’ll see what happens in the next week.



10 d(or nights)po–possible TMI December 3, 2008

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My boobs are covered in a road map.  They are covered in blue veins.  I’m pregnant.  There is really no other reason for that.

I’m not testing until Thurs though.


10 DPO December 2, 2008

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Thanks for the encouragement in the comments!  I’m not feeling nearly as sure as I was in the last couple of days, so that gave me the shot in the arm I need.

No new symptoms.  I must have peed every 10 mins yesterday!  Otherwise it feels like there are less symptoms or they aren’t as strong.  Although fertility friend is now saying 67% of the charts like mine are pregnant and my point estimator is up to 86 points.  

I did take a pregnancy test today and it was negative.  I never get a positive until 12-13 days, but was hoping this time would be different.  Sigh….


9 DPO December 1, 2008

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Here it is, 3:30 am and I had to pee for the third time last night.  Hmmm….

So here are the symptoms:

  • Super tired–I ended up taking two naps yesterday and going to bed at 8:30
  • Hungry.  In fact, I was so hungry after peeing this last time that I had to get up and eat something.
  • Very dizzy

I’d say I’m pregnant.  I was so convinced of it yesterday that a deep, gripping fear took hold of me and I tried to google success stories of women who have babies after four miscarriages.  It was hard to find.  Luckily I know of a couple of women who are having success this time around and they give me hope.


6 DPO November 28, 2008

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I’m finally getting to the interesting part of my cycle where I can obsess about every sign going on in my body.  Wanna join in the fun?

Not much really going on.  I have been peeing a lot and was up for hours last night because my belly was on fire.  Hubby said it is acid indigestion, which is entirely possible on Thanksgiving, right?  Would it start 11 hours after a big meal?  The only time I ever have that feeling is when I am pregnant.  I possibly also have an implantation dip today.  I’m guessing the dip would occur after implantation has occurred, so maybe my body is recognizing I’m pregnant, generating hormones and that is causing the burning in the belly.  Probably not though and I’m just overanalyzing.  See below for chart…

November chart

Fertility friend now has a feature of assigning points with an early pregnancy estimator.  Today I’m at 46 points.  And when I search charts like mine for intercourse pattern and post ovulation temps, they are 54% pregnant.


3 DPO–TMI warning! November 25, 2008

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So I’m 3 DPO and have to wait another 10 days to test.  Ho hum.  

In addition to having my first cycle with femara, multiple ultrasounds and an hcg trigger shot, they prescribed endometrin.  AKA the devil drug.  I’ve been on progesterone suppositories before.  But I swear they added a little anti-poop medication in there.  I’ll probably have to start wearing a belly band tomorrow since I’m so frigging constipated!  UGH.  And then there is this awful discharge.  Huge quantities of a chalky substance.  It is nasty.

I hate you endometrin.  HATE.  You better be worth it!


Do you hear what I hear?? November 20, 2008

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So I’m on my way to the u/s today.  I’m stopped, looking at the Reuse It center to my left and thinking maybe I should stop by later?  All the sudden…WHAM!!  I got rear ended!  And, of course, I have to wonder, does this have meaning in my life?  I mean, honestly I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck often enough with all of this baby stuff, do I really need the full effect?

After my head stopped bouncing around, I thought “oh, maybe it will be totaled!”  No such luck.  There was some scraped paint on the bumper.  So no easy excuse to turn in the 8 year old Corolla with 123k miles.  Don’t get me wrong.  Corollas are decent, reliable cars.  The only teeny, tiny problem is that this is the third time I’ve been rear ended when at a complete stop, plus my hubby hit a deer once.  It isn’t a pristine Corolla and it is our only car.  It does apparently have a unique feature though– special invisible paint like Wonder Woman’s jet.  Honestly people.  Start seeing motorcycles AND Corollas. 

So I get to my appointment, a little shaken and dazed.  Here are the stats:

Right follicle=22.87mm

Left follicles=16.5mm and 12.9mm

So I’m guessing the dud on my left that only grew 1mm in 3 days is now reabsorbed and the 16.5 was the one coming on strong the other day.  But what do I know anyway?  So I got the hcg shot.  The nurse told me we are working with two, but it seems to me that it is really just the one.  I could have done that without the meds and all these darn appointments!  Oh well, we’ll see what happens.

And this is what I hear….

oh yeah….

So this medicated cycle on femara looks like this so far:

CD3 baseline u/s

CD4-7 femara starting with one pill and adding another each day

CD10 u/s with three follicles at 15.5, 15 and 12.5 

CD13 u/s with four follicles at 17.5, 16, 15 and 9

CD15 u/s with three follicles at 21.87, 16.5 and 12.5.  Lining is 10.46. HCG shot.