Dream you’re mine

The journey from miscarriage to whatever comes next

3, 2, 1… May 8, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — agplatters @ 12:01 pm

Just counting down the days to test tomorrow…..for the last few days I’ve been tired (could be period), lightheaded to the point of feeling like I’d pass out (hmmm….) and waking up in the middle of the night to pee (my first sign with the other pregnancies.)  

I am trying to brace myself for the worst, which wouldn’t be a negative test, but a positive one that isn’t successful.  Yet every time I get tricked into thinking “this one will work because (insert valid reason)”.  In this case, it was conceived over the weekend that we celebrated our first anniversary.  There was so much love, I could see the butterflies and puppies and hearts bouncing off the walls!  How could that end badly?

Ok, rational side.  Talk to me.  Reasons it could end badly:

  • Still haven’t seen specialist for thyroid or started meds due to inefficiencies in the doctor’s offices
  • If there is an underlying issue with my hormones or uterus lining, those haven’t been tested and can’t be until after my period